Joy

I've always wondered what real joy felt like. Not the type of joy that comes one second and leaves, I mean Joy! It feels you up, it lifts your spirit, It renews you! It's the joy of The Lord! I've always looked for that joy. I've always dreamed about it and stared at the people in church wishing I could get it.

I haven't thought about not having joy, lately, is that because I may have it? Maybe? I feel a great joy when I look at my baby boy. He has the most perfect face I have ever laid eyes on. I can have a bad day and I look into his deep brown eyes and it all goes away. I'm more at peace, I'm happy, I have joy!

Is it the same type of joy? I don't know. I just know that I'm not looking anymore, I don't search the pews of my church pointing out the joy people and comparing them to me, the non joy. Because I have my own joy and I know it's from The Lord.