Sort of Venting

I have a secret. I’m totally jealous of all these filmmakers that are able to make documentaries about Detroit. Also I’m terribly upset and please forgive me because I’m no way a racist, but from the filmmakers to the people they are interviewing are mostly white. And Detroit is over 80% black! I just don’t understand or I do but it’s a sad truth, why can’t we help our city in which we love. I really think we don’t love it. I mean, I know I love it but I don’t live there anymore, I live in New York. But all my friends and family that live there they don’t love it, they want to leave. It’s like we can’t see the possibilities of it’s greatness and we run away from it. I left to chase an impossible dream of New York and becoming Oprah and being President of ABC daytime but my spirit cries for Detroit. When I watch these films or trailers I say ‘Why couldn’t I do that!’ Then I list all the things I don’t have and why I can’t do anything to help Detroit and that I can barley help myself, my family. The other day I passed this woman and her baby in the subway begging (is that the right word?) for money or whatever and all I had was five dollars and the food I was taking home because I had not thawed any chicken or ground beef which seems to be the only thing in my fridge this week. And I felt awful, just like I felt awful when me & my brother played ‘How many abandoned houses are there’ on each block in Detroit. It’s a lot my friend! A terrible amount of abandoned, burnt up, houses. I just don’t know. I love Detroit and my heart breaks for it and maybe I will find some time and money and find a way to help.

Also, I know this is terrible but why don’t black people adopt little black babies. Why should anyone adopt them, why can’t their parents step the hell up and keep their kids. I want to go crazy too! I want to run off sometime and live on the street just so I don’t have to deal with anything but do I? NO! Because I have a responsibility to someone who can’t take care of themselves yet, so whenever my mind wonders and you have no idea how it wonders, I just look at my phone and I see the worlds most perfect face and it calms me, it steadies me and then all is well with the world again and sometime my depression is lifted, my tears dry up and I’m happy. So we should make an effort to raise our own little black kids but if you do not step the HELL UP trust me there will be a very nice white family who is ready, willingly and able to adopt your child and guess what, they will give them a better life.

Ahhhhh! I just had to get all this off my chest! I want to help Detroit and I pray to God that one day I will be able too. Thanks for letting me vent my few readers! LOL