Things that plague me this AM

It's Easter Sunday or Resurrection Sunday and I find myself up trying to get ready for 8:30a service so that I wont look blend in with the other people that only go to church on Easter which my pet peeve! But in my attempt to jump the gun and run off to my very large church with very flashy beautiful ppl, every outfit in my closet does not fit okay some fit but I just don't like how they look and if I go out and get another damn 'you pregnant?' comment I'm sure I will flip on this Sunday that Jesus died for my sins. Which would not be good.

Also I was in the city yesterday at Radio City Music hall and I passed these beautiful shops with great clothes for ppl who wear like a size 8 max and had tons of money both which I have never been. Sadness. But truthful. Don't feel sorry for me or anything, I'm not starving and if I was ever a size 8 I'm sure it was like 5th grade, so since I never had the hot bod I don't really miss it! LOL Plus I'm still pretty hot! or pretty pretty.

The next thing on my mind this morning is: What if Jesus didn't die for our sins? I would be so messed up. I shutter just thinking about it. Life is really hard and some of the things that I have faced would have me in a mental hospital, in jail or dead. He's kept me from dangers seen and unseen. While I type this my memory is going back to a time when I was on my porch and this guy pulled up looking for my cousins friend & her mother who jumped on a little girl. The man was angry and in a drop top car and screaming at me. I kept saying they weren't at my house. My mom runs out and tells the man they weren't there and to get on. He pulls off then she turns on me and begins screaming at me because the man had a gun in the car and I'm standing out there arguing with him and is about to get shot. I had no idea but as she kept talking I did realize that his right hand did not move, it was always down. Thank You Jesus! Thank You!

Remember what he has done for you! Because if he hadn't we would all be lost!