chidhood venting

So I find myself feeling a little down today and realize that I have somehow been taken back to my childhood. It all started when I saw my ex boyfriend wife’s FB page (which I didn’t even like him that much) but the memories flooded back on him NOT showing up to my Sweet 16 when everyone else in the free world did. Then my suppose best friend (who half the time I don’t know if we really are best friends but I STILL LOVE YOU), she finds her long lost friend who I didn’t particularly like in HS or who I was jealous of b/c she had an awesome body and all the guys loved her. But none the less I didn’t like her for my own selfish reasons and I became angry when my friend who I have stuck by all these years get excited over someone she hasn’t talked to in 15 yrs and who wasn’t that great to her once upon a time! So yes I’m grumpy and I’m pissy but I’m selfish! I really am! Here I a grown ass woman and I find myself caring about 2x ppl that meant nothing in the first place it’s a little pathetic! I mean really how sensitive can one person be? Well, if the person is me I could be very sensitive! I can cry on the drop of a hat. People think I’ve had a perfect life but I haven’t, I’m the corky chubby girl w/ a lot of friends but corky and chubby none the less. I was in the middle of spoiled and neglected, poor & rich, happy & sad. I live my life in the middle. I’m both smart & slow, both outgoing & shy. How does one work w/ that? Well I shall be forever me and I will not be taken back to HS because those two ppl weren’t at all bad! The guy actually became my friend for a few years and the girl I was her friend too off & on. And let’s face it, I wouldn’t want to marry some controlling ass anyway (oh wait did that! LOL) and that girl was gorgeous but I would trade my pretty face for anyone and well my stomach may be pudgy but hey! It’s never been flat! What you see is what you get and what you get is NOT BAD AT ALL! As always thanks for letting me share!